Tomorrow is very important day of my life. After accomplishing Masters Degree in Humanities and Social Sciences, I want to join teaching for experience and exercise of my mind not for money. For I think, through teaching only I can enhance my education and knowledge. And again for joining M. Phil I’m too young and even I don’t own any work experience in the field of academia . Thus, I’m going to give my cv to different colleges in the city for higher secondary level English teacher.
Here the matter is, my lecturers and professors who taught me, Literary Theory(feminism) has already alerted me that if I look beautiful; there is high possibility of being hired my good companies/places and I’m an average looking girl. This is the first case which triggers me tremendously.
The second case is, the place/environment where I’ve moved after my masters studies is totally different. Here, people time and again acknowledge me that I’m a girl. I don’t understand what they try to make me understand. Do they know more about me than I do; my body, character, qualification and so forth. And coincidentally, today is the longest day of the year, to focus on these issues.
The day seems like never ending
My motivation is getting negative blending
With fear and failure of faith
And causing hatred towards this heaven
And feels like hell and hearth.
The other special thing about the day is, it’s music day. Actually, on regular basis I choose my music, but, today music is choosing me.
Music is emotion enhancer
When I’m in good mood
I feel like a dancer
And dance like Papa’s Waltz.
Today, I’m motionless
Yet, restless and the activeness
Of mind is in 100 speediness
Oops!! What is the worth of this restless
They’re all senseless, and mess.
The other speciality of the day is, it’s Yoga Day. And there is no Fog on my face but heart is filled with frozen lake of fear, and perplexion.😣😣😣.